Without an E

Oh hi there, withoutane.tumblr.com, 

How’ve you been? How’s life been treating yo…what’s that? What? Where’ve I been? Why I haven’t a blogged in weeks? Oh, uh, well I … umm….

OK, look. I know I’ve not been doing my job as a self-indulgent personal blogger as of late. I haven’t been reposting the many hilarious cat videos I come across or wielding my smart phone to dish out tidbits on exciting happenings in my life. Things have just been a little crazy. Is that fair to you? No. So, you’re angry, and I get that. And you have the right to be upset. Just hear me out here.

A lot has happened in the past four or five months. I started a new job(ish) in September, which means I’m no longer sitting in front of a computer all day like I was before. I’m running around the city shoving microphones in everyone’s faces and interviewing people and jetting off to press conferences all the time. And it’s so exciting and wonderful and I love it, but it’s also stressful and requires a lot of me mentally.

And when I am sitting in front of a computer, it’s to write stories and look up phone numbers and do research and fact check, so there’s just no time to keep up with you while I’m at work. And I have another job on top of that, a job I don’t really love but that’s necessary to supplement my dreams of becoming an actual journalist. It’s what I have to do right now, so that takes up a lot of time, too. And there’s another job on top of that. So, you see, I’m just really busy and exhausted all the time, because I’m constantly working. And in those few instances I do have free time, I try to spend them working out or cooking or, dare I say, with friends, because sometimes I just need a break from the internet and obligation.

And I moved! I moved. Twice, in fact. Once at the beginning of October to a middle house of sorts while I figured some things out, and then again two weeks ago. And that took a lot of time and energy, not to mention the time and energy spent apartment hunting and setting up utilities and all that jazz. And now, of course, there’s the holidays to contend with and all that comes with them. And I haven’t really done my shopping, and all that just adds to this feeling that I’m teetering on the brink of losing control. So something just had to give in the past few months, and I’m sorry, blog, but that thing was you.

Pshew.

That’s the short, less dramatic/deeply personal list of what’s been going on with me, so please don’t take my absence personal. Sure, I suppose I could post random instagram-like, out-of-context photos with pithy captions that provide even more out-of-context insight into a contrived, filtered version of “my life.” But I won’t do that to you, blog. I just won’t. I can’t sacrifice quality for the sake of quantity. To do so would be to go against my editorial consciousness. 

What I’m trying to say is, I’ll be better going forward. I’m working on it, and I haven’t forgotten about you. In the meantime, here’s a photo of a sleeping cat.

luv,

Michell